Bad times. . .

I guess I'm not doing every day now. Thanks to our dear leader, we'll be in quarantine forever. It's harder now because it didn't have to be this way. Europe and NZ and Canada and lots of other places did a couple of months or so of severe shutdown and now they can reopen (using contract tracing to prevent another outbreak). Schools can open. Businesses can open. And we're still in the middle of horrible pandemic. 140,000 Americans are dead. In less than six months. And still no leadership. It's state by state, city by city, county by county.

There are actual secret police on American streets beating American citizens. I write that but I cannot quite believe it. They wear no insignia or badges. They refuse to answer who they are, who they work for. They beat peaceful protestors. They arrest in unmarked vans with no probable cause. This is in America.

I wanted to write about Ruby and Maggie and our life but I can't think about anything but this. I feel like I'm in Germany in 1935. Should we leave? Are we safe? Will things get better? You read about times like this and wonder why people didn't leave. Like it's so easy. Like there's a moment you know.

Friday through Wednesday, Day 112-117 of Quarantine

I'm having a hard time. Everything is insane. In the beginning it was scary because we just didn't know. Now we know but our government just doesn't care. All state offices are closed and people are working from home. TXDot, TEA, etc. But schools? They're opening. Children (including my children) have to be on the front line of a pandemic. And there's nothing I can do to protect my kids. I have to send them. I have to work.

Trump is a monster. A racist, misogynistic monster. He is pretending the pandemic is over so he can spew his hateful, racist rhetoric. He's turned this country into a joke. We could have ended this pandemic, like, oh, ALL OF EUROPE DID. But no. Instead we get a huge number (and rising every day) of deaths AND an economic freefall.

I don't know what else to say. I'm sickened by this.

Thursday, Day 111 of Quarantine

My back hurt today! I was so tired. I slept in and then took a LONG nap and could have slept even longer. It's weird pain. My lower back pain is usually in the bones, but this is muscle pain.

Anyway, we didn't do anything. After my nap, I cleaned and made the girls grilled cheese sandwiches. Something they'll eat!

Wednesday, Day 110 of Quarantine

Ruby slept in again!

I hurt my back. I have a sand bag that's about 40 pounds, which is perfect for lower body lifting. Unfortunately, it's too heavy to lift over my head to put on my shoulders. So, I was doing a squat to get it to waist level and then kind of bending to the side and using momentum to get it up on my shoulders. That was too much on my lower back. Blah.

We're staying at Laurie and Jeff's later since Ruby is sleeping in.

Tuesday, Day 109 of Quarantine

I accidentally woke Ruby up this morning. Why???? SHE SLEPT IN! I woke her up in a panic because she wasn't awake at 7:20 am. She wasn't in her bed. She was on the floor next to it. She told me, Mommy you woke me up when I was sleeping. I won't do it again.

We went swimming, of course. I'm trying to keep Ruby up a little later now that she'll sleep in a little. We'll see how it goes.